I have recently made the decision that it is time to change my day job. I love what I do, but my heart and God are leading me to do something different. I have been searching for a job at my current salary and the more I look the more depressing it gets. There just aren’t any jobs out there at my current rate of pay. This lack of opportunity has caused me to look long and hard at my life and my finances. Why is it so important to want what we want and to have what we have?
The modern obsession is about things. The best car, computer, house, cell phone plan….you name it, we want the best. Why is that? Why can’t we be happy with the nice things that might not be the most expensive? Why do we have to live with so much stuff?
The need for things is derived from that human condition that causes us to be empty inside. We have a God shaped hole in our beings that we fill with everything we can. Now, we don’t know it is God we need, until we find him which is the beauty of the thing. We don’t’ realize this desire for happiness and fulfillment that we try to load up with stuff is our soul trying to tell us we need God.
I am always amazed when I hear stories of people who wake up one day and quit their job to follow their passion. Like the corporate businessman who wants to grow coffee and sell it at a corner shop or the doctor who sails half way around the world to treat sick kids in some dusty country and live in a hut. Why is this idea of doing what we love, doing what our heart desires so difficult? Why is the leap of faith so scary? It is that obsession of having the best things and what will we do when we can’t afford them anymore. Dont’ be fooled when you hear stories of people taking the leap into their dream life, don’t be impressed. Somewhere in the story the truth comes out, the person has multi million dollars and can afford to just wake up and change their life.
What about the rest of us? How can we leap and not be afraid of what would happen? I don’t have all the answers but I am at the point in my life where I am willing to try, to leap and see what happens. I really don’t have a plan. I know what I want to do in my life and I think that the answer is small steps leading up to the leap. I am taking baby steps to the edge of the cliff then I am going to jump.
I am so over this modern obsession to want, have and buy. I want a simple life, a God filled life. These things we can’t live without cloud our mind and make it difficult to see God. We are spending hours looking in to the apps of our cell phones, driving our fine cars, staring at some lit up screen of the latest techno gadget instead of looking for what God is doing in our lives and where He is sending us.
Would it be so bad to jump, take a leap of faith and let God work out the rest?