Happy and Relaxed

Why is it when we sit and do nothing that it feels like we are cheating on someone or something? It is quiet and I am relaxed, but my mind thinks it should be occupied with some sort of activity. Why isn’t it simply enough to be happy. You know that happy you feel when you are in your lover’s arms and there is nothing to do, nowhere to be. That peaceful sigh that escapes your mind as you settle in the moment. Do you remember that feeling? Was it so long ago? Seems a life time past.

I miss that sort of peace, that quiet, soulful peace. I want to feel that again, but my mind will not settle down and stop thinking that it has to be busy with some sort of distraction. Th only way I can make it stop is to read or write. Write or read. I guess that peaceful rest is not for me at this moment. I will go spend time with my books. They won’t judge me or force me into reading what feels wrong. I can just be in their presence. Happy.




Pure Joy

I have not thought of being a Christian as being joyful. It is just part of who I am. Life is not always joyful. Things have to get done. Kids have to be raised. Work has to get finished. Life goes on whether we feel joyful or not. Is the Christian life supposed to be joyful or is merely being a Christian supposed to be joyful? I find it hard to grasp the concept when I study the people in the Bible. Some are in not so joyful circumstances but they remain faithful to God. In prison or at war, praising God the entire time, they are praying, worshiping Him and trusting God.

I have a friend who posts on Facebook all the time about joy. She says things like, “Don’t let anyone steal your joy.” Joy is not a state of being as much as it is a gift of the spirit. It is there for us to tap into if we want it. Our lack of joy in our salvation is because we do not access it. Think about it.

Why fear, God is all-powerful and has your back.

Why be sad, God is taking care of all you needs.

Why doubt, God has never let you down before.

The joy of God is yours, all you have to do is accept it.

Be joyful! Praise God!

Do not let this life and the evil in it steal your joy. It is so easy to get down and listen to those who are negative. Those who want you to be as miserable as they are in this life. Do not allow it. Joy from God is there. Turn off the cell phone, go outside alone, look up to the heavens and pray. Or go where you feel closest to God. Ask Him to send His joy to your life. Despite what your circumstances are, accept the joy of God.

Then, thank Him for it!




The Struggle of Truth

I am in a struggle at the moment. I know that the Bible is the true word of God. I know that I can trust what I read. My problem is that I am finding things that don’t make sense to me. I am still at the very beginning of my study, but I am having a hard time getting my head around that some passages contradict each other. If the Bible is true and God is well,  God, how can that be? I have a theory. It is not a proven theory, just a hypothesis.

God is perfect, God’s word also perfect. Man is not, thus man’s hand in the Bible corrupted some parts. 

Yea, good in theory, but God’s word is infallible. See the issue? I can only think that I have to do two things to reconcile the struggle in my head. I have to move it to my heart. I have to trust God by the faith I have that He will show me the truth, whatever it is, if I dutifully read His word. Right?

Here is the thing, I have no less than fourteen versions of the Bible on my shelf. I can read anyone of those. Here lately I have been reading on-line. I think the issue is I have a disconnect between my faith in God and my reading God’s word. It is not real to me. I am going to shift back to reading a real in my hands Bible. Maybe the feel of the book in my hand will make it real again to me.

“All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be competent, equipped for every good work.” 1 Tim 3:16-17

“For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.” Hebrews 4:12

There are 53 other verses about the Bible in the Bible. If I believe only these two, then I have my answer. If that is the case, since I do believe God’s word, why am I struggling? I don’t have the answer, but I will.



Where Did it Go?

You know that old saying, “my get up and go has left?” Yea, that is me today. I am dragging butt (another of my favorite old things to say). I wrote last time about good tired, yea I am still feeling that but I think I am feeling seasonal allergies too. I hate whiners and here I am whining.

It just goes to show you that we can be in someone else predicament at any second. I have seen those people who say I hate this or that sort of person. Well if it wasn’t for the grace of God you would be there too. What about those who say, “I can’t stand the way she does this or that.” Watch out , but by grace there go I.

Even if you really do not like something a person does, says, or what a person simply is, just remember it could be you.  But what about hate? Even God hates. He hates evil. You can’t truly love someone without hating what  is harmful to those you love.  I try not to use the word hate in my life but I figure if God can hate evil I can to. Not people, but the evil that motivates them. People are just people. They can, however have evil or good in their heart. Same goes for you and me.

There she goes, but by the grace of a loving God, I would be going that way too. Think about it.


A Different Kind of Tired

I spent so many wasted minutes in my life complaining that I was tired and stressed when I should have been thanking God that I was surviving. I was tired and very stressed, but I was the problem. Once I realized that the problem wasn’t God, life, my job, or anything else, the problem was me. I decided to fix me. I was tired, but now I am a different kind of tired. I am a happy, blessed tired.

Often we think that the issue is God and His not answering prayers as we beg for a new life, job. money , whatever you are begging for, when the entire time we are crying to God He is waiting on us to move and change our attitude. I had to change me, make a stand for what was right, then the blessing came.What is more, I knew what God wanted me to do, but I was like Job with every excuse as to why I shouldn’t do it. Once I did as I was being led to do. God answered.

Is the problem with your prayer life you?

I challenge you to change your prayers to those of thanking instead of asking. Change what you are doing, change your attitude and listen. Move your prayers from ” I want”, “Help Me”, “Give Me”, to “Thank God” and “Help others”.  Then act on those prayers.

See the blessing follow.




A Happy Sort of Tired

I started my Summer semester this week. Only two more and I am finished with graduate school.  I am tired. It is a different kind of tired than what I am used to. I am not so exhausted that I can’t enjoy my time at home. I am not looking toward my class work as a prisoner looks at torture. OK, maybe it wasn’t that bad, but I was bone tired now I am happy tired. There is something satisfying about going to bed tired after a long day of work that  you love doing and a life you enjoy. I haven’t had that in a long time.

Today the weekend starts, I have to work all weekend and I am excited about it. All I can say is Thank God! I have a job, and I have a job I like.

Please don’t waste another day in a life you are not happy being living in. Missing out on living is so not worth being unhappy day after day. Find your passion, pursue what you love, and make a happy life for yourself. Yes, pray about it, but God is looking for your actions. How you live is just as important, if not more so than what you pray for.

What are you waiting on!

Thankful Peace

I can not say “Thank you God!” enough these days. I was amazed that for all that worry I did for all those months about taking a leap of faith did not come to be. That my big life change has gone so well has just stunned me. I was worried about money, and that has worked out wonderfully.  No debt mongers have come knocking at my door to drag me away to debtor’s prison. Unexpected deposits in the bank, several bills went down, and my investment accounts gained at an unexpected rate. I just knew that making less money would be the end of me. It wasn’t.  I was certain that people in my life would be disappointed in me. Just the opposite has happened. Everyone I know is proud of me!

I followed God’s will for my life and I have survived just fine. It hasn’t all been perfect, but it has been peaceful. I am happier than I have been in years! It is amazing how God works.

Thank you God!

Take my advice, if you don’t remember anything I say today, remember this:

If you follow God’s will for your life, you will be thankful, humbled and at peace. No matter what happens around you, God will provide and give you peace.