Struggling

I am really struggling with God right now. I find myself questioning why things are not going the way I think they should or the way that seems like the best way. I need God to move in my life in a way that is specific, so I pray. I have been here before with God and I know that He always comes through. He keeps His promises and I am always blessed.

This time I am full of doubt that what I need to happen will happen. I keep hearing myself say to God, “Ok, I can do this or that, just let me help move things along, and see what happens.” I instantly know it is the wrong answer. I know that I am to wait, trust and pray. I hate that answer. I want to act…I want  to do something, to react..anything!

Hence the struggle. Sit, wait….listen. remain faithful. Trust that God is in control. When all I want to do is move and fidget with my own ideas that are no where near as good as what God has for me. God’s will for my life is perfect for me. All I have to do is be patient and hold on to faith.

Yeah, easier said than done.

James 1:2-4 (NRSV)
2 My brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of any kind, consider it nothing but joy, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance; 4 and let endurance have its full effect, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking in nothing.

2 thoughts on “Struggling

  1. I know this is an older post so I hope that the struggle has flourished and you are now stronger then ever.

    I too have felt what you were going through. Be patient, pray and have faith is what I was told. Doubt starts to set in when you become impatient and the prayers start sounding the same with no answer, so faith starts diminishing. This was the case for me a few years ago.

    I came to a realization as I really began to read His Word that there is no time in eternity. The Lord doesn’t care about time. All he cares about is what is in your heart. He was testing my faith to see if I would give up, especially with all the earthly distractions around me. But as I read His Word and started understanding, I can feel myself becoming wiser and I can sense His presence in my life. I feel we were communicating back and fourth and that this was a start of an actual relationship. From then on my perspective changed and God opened doors for me and brought people into my life that would actually help me write my first book. Not published yet, but I can feel the Lord helping me along the way.

    It looks like you are on the right path. Keep strong and keep faith!

    • Yes things are better. Thanks be to God. I still struggle but now I can look back at this post and see that God’s hand was guiding me from where I was when I wrote this to now.
      Good luck with your book! I’m doing the same thing. About midway to completion. Thank you for the comment. It was a blessing to read.

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